Moments of Freedom: Privacy

It may seems strange, that a new found freedom of this surgery is privacy--especially in light of the fact that basically my breasts now have their own blog and that many of my conversations discuss my breasts and such.  However, it is true.  I now feel more...private in that area.  Let me explain.

A few weeks after the surgery I was helping prepare for Liam Davids birthday party.  I had errands to complete in the Bay Hills Shopping Center (a strip mall near my parents house).  As I walked form one store to the next I realized I would have to walk though a group of seedy looking men in order to get to my next stop.  As usual, I braced myself: "Just walk confidently, and keep your eyes straight ahead".  I usually do this kind of self talk to help me deal with the inevitable stares, and to avoid ANY mixed messages.  If you aren't careful, these types of characters will think that you enjoy their attention and desire more.

And as I passed, I could see in my peripheral vision that not one man was starring.  They didn't even notice me.  

I felt so free.

It is so freeing to not attract the attention of less then honorable men.  

It is even more freeing to not attract the attention of honorable men.  Before, my breast were so large that it would be difficult for any man, even the nice ones, to not look.  I could see it and sense it in church and small groups, good guys trying not to look.  I tried to make things less...attractive, but there is only so much a girl can do to disguise 5 lbs of breasts, you know?  I feel so much more comfortable and less distracting to the men I encounter.  Such a relief.

And because my breasts are no longer "out there" for everyone to see, they have become much more private and secretive.  I enjoy that they are now only for me and my husband, and not the shady men on the street.  So even though I may share lots of information about my breasts, my privacy is totally maintained in their new size and shape :)  It's fun to have smaller breasts.